Wanna know something annoying?

[xiphias]

So, in the last couple months, my Depression has been close enough to under control that I think that the main things holding me back now are the habits of depression. Even though I'm not being squished under the emotional ten-ton rocks, I've been squished by them so long that I have to re-learn -- or, let's face it, learn for the FIRST time, since I've NEVER been not-depressed -- how to stand up, move around, and do things.

And I'm making progress. For the last two weeks, I've been doing chores around the house every day, and have started to make parts of the house look habitable. That's never happened before.

And I've started being able to do things like cook for Lis.

So, yesterday, I made quiche. With a homemade pie crust, from the new Cook's Illustrated (mainly, I wanted to try their pie crust recipe -- it works well -- so I made quiche for it). And I saved the water in which I cooked the veggies that I put in the quiche, and, today, I used that water as part of a stock to make a soup.

So we've had homemade, fresh meals, two nights in a row -- quiche, and soup. And both were good.

So I'm now craving pizza. Bad pizza. Like Domino's or something. The kind of pizza I don't actually LIKE. Because I've been making good food.

THAT'S what's annoying.

Comments

[gilmoure.livejournal.com]

Hmmm ...a pizza with home made crust, sautéed chicken in garlic butter, a cream/alfredo white sauce, fried potatoes with green chili and fresh mozzarella over all ...aargle ...drool

[felis-sidus.livejournal.com]

Yummm! There used to be a little pizza place on Huron Ave that made a pizza much like that, sans the chicken. Their dough wasn't home made, but it did come from the Hi-Rise Bread Company. All their pizza names were astronomical terms. I forget what the potato pizza was named, but it was addictive. *sigh*

[sezurei.livejournal.com]

Food curves like that can be so annoying.
Kudos for you for trying to break the residual habits. :D

[cheshyre]

You could always *make* pizza; you're pretty good at that...

[xiphias.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I know -- but I was craving BAD pizza.

[gingicat]

I've been having cravings for blueberry pancakes, myself. ;)

Melrose House of Pizza, while not bad pizza, is certainly fast food pizza - would that help the cravings?

And I'm glad you're feeling generally better! I've been missing you guys but not wanting to impose - your posts about the aftermath of the Italy trip really really worried me.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

I'm really glad your depression is under much better control than before!

I shall always have depression as an issue that I have to consider, and when I'm stressed it's so much worse, but I get to be mostly functional as long as I don't try to work full-time and don't try to come off my meds. I can do part-time, and it's good for me, but not full-time.

When you can afford it, try cognitive behavioural therapy. It's a way of adjusting your thinking processes and getting rid of negative thought spirals that make you anxious and dysfunctional. So most people find that it works wonders for stopping the really bad, big-D depression coming back.