I'm supposed to be at gaming today

[xiphias]

I really don't want to go.

I don't like Champions, I'm not thrilled with the setting concept, I don't particularly like my character, I don't know the GM (he's new), and I just have absolutely no interest in this campaign.

I'm feeling pressured to go.

Lis keeps asking me why I'm not comfortable just saying I'm not going, since this is supposed to be something fun, something I enjoy.

I really don't want to go. I really don't feel comfortable telling people that. The best I can manage is passively-agressively failling to show up.

Comments

[cheshyre]

A couple questions on commitment:

• Under what circumstances is it acceptable to renegotiate a commitment? If you don't feel you can unilaterally dismiss a commitment, is it acceptable to talk with the other party about modifying the terms or even negotiating an end?
  
• What are your rules when multiple commitments conflict? I'm not just talking about when you've had family obligations scheduled against your gaming (which you've handled on a case-by-case basis) but if multiple people are acting on conflicting commitments?
  
• What if nothing is left of the commitment but expectations? Can you find some other way of meeting those social obligations outside of game?

In some respect, this feels to me like you're putting everybody else's wants above your own, and setting your own needs last.

Is it possible for you to make a commitment towards your own mental wellbeing that can be considered alongside your other commitments?

BTW, I love you very much, and thank you for posting about this.