I'm pretty sure that the whole "exercise makes you feel better" works 100% on the "hitting yourself in the head with a hammer" mode of feeling better: it just feels so good when you stop. . . .
Except that I hate it. I dread it for every second that I plan on doing it. Every second that I am actually doing it I am thinking about how many seconds it is until I get to stop. And the second I am done I get this huge rush of relief that I'm finished and I don't have to do it again until tomorrow.
And then I feel fantastic for the the rest of the day and I can feel very clearly how much better I feel mentally. And I know that if I do it again tomorrow my mental health will improve even more.
So yeah. I know it's very much from the hammer school. But fuck, it's the only thing that's ever actually worked.
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Date: 2009-09-03 05:12 am (UTC)Except that I hate it. I dread it for every second that I plan on doing it. Every second that I am actually doing it I am thinking about how many seconds it is until I get to stop. And the second I am done I get this huge rush of relief that I'm finished and I don't have to do it again until tomorrow.
And then I feel fantastic for the the rest of the day and I can feel very clearly how much better I feel mentally. And I know that if I do it again tomorrow my mental health will improve even more.
So yeah. I know it's very much from the hammer school. But fuck, it's the only thing that's ever actually worked.