So, I rarely desire things

[xiphias]

It's true. When I want something, it is usually an intellectual want, or a mild, vague urge, but I rarely truly passionately desire something.

I'd like to claim that this is because of a careful Buddhist detachment, or training in Stoic philosophy, but, in reality, it's probably just a side effect of the type of depression I've had for years.

So it's kind of neat that I now really, really want something -- something I desire so much that my teeth hurt.

That's not a figure of speech, by the way -- I literally noticed that my back molars were somehow aching with desire for this. Dunno why that happens, but it did.

Bruce Galloway's Fantasy Wargaming generally considered to be a truly awful roleplaying system, and I don't disagree with this assessment. I attempted to play it once, in seventh grade, and couldn't make heads or tails of it -- and I later discovered that this was due to no fault in myself, but simply because it is just that poorly written and thought-out.

So I don't know why I desire the thing so much -- but I found a copy on AbeBooks, for $3.98 including shipping, and bought it. Other copies started at $1, but generally had shipping start at $3 -- there was one that was listed for $1 with $2.50 shipping, but it was listed as "Fair" condition, while the $3.98 with free shipping was listed as "Very Good" condition, so I decided to spend the extra 48 cents.

I don't suppose that the seller is going to make a great profit on this thing, but it gets it out of his or her stock anyway.

Yeah. I just spent nearly four bucks on a used copy of a game that everyone, including me, thinks sucks. And I can't wait for it to get here!!!

Comments

[jhitchin.livejournal.com]

Dude! There is just something so fun about something that sucks so badly! Enjoy!

[janetmiles.livejournal.com]

I don't have nearly as strong a desire, but I wouldn't mind getting my hands on a copy of Spawn of Fashan.

[vonbeck.livejournal.com]

This sounds interesting, I look foward to when you get it and I can take
look at the thing. I anticapate some good laughs with you over it.

[gilmoure.livejournal.com]

Makes me want to get a copy of Starship Troopers, from back in the early 80's. I was way over my head with that game but yeah, would be cool to drag it out again.

[felis-sidus.livejournal.com]

I say, take your joy where you find it!

[fibro-witch.livejournal.com]

So you did a good dead by taking it out of the guys stock.

[hfcougar.livejournal.com]

I remember paying once for a CD-ROM game called "Dogs Playing Poker". Yes, it's what it sounds like - but for some reason, I REALLY wanted it. Soooo tacky.

[xiphias.livejournal.com]

How is it?

[vito-excalibur.livejournal.com]

I'd like to claim that this is because of a careful Buddhist detachment, or training in Stoic philosophy, but, in reality, it's probably just a side effect of the type of depression I've had for years.

Goddammit, that is exactly right. I still become infuriated by the concept of nirvana. I've fucking been there. I've been to the place where I was free of earthly desires and the only thing I wanted was to be off the Wheel. IT SUCKED. It's not just sarcasm to say "It's good to want things." If you don't want anything, you're not fucking alive.

[rebmommy.livejournal.com]

Let's play! I like bad and tacky things - just look around my house.