Readjustment of reactions

One of the hardest parts about Boopsie's death is that so many of my reactions and habits are based around that cat.

"Oh, I shouldn't put this here or Boopsie will . . .no, she won't."

"If I do this, the cat could . . . no, she couldn't."

I'm cleaning up the floor where she messed when she lost bowel control, and using bleach. And I keep thinking how I really better keep that door closed so the cat doesn't have to deal with the bleach. . .