Answer for question 4523.

[Error: unknown template qotd]Every time I go back over my life and look at my worst decisions, I realize that I either did not have the physical or psychological ability to make a different choice at the time, or, even though it was obviously a bad decision, it led down a path that led to a situation I wouldn't give up, or most often, both.

I SHOULD have gone to UMass Amherst, where I would have gotten a full scholarship, instead of Brandeis. But then I wouldn't have met my wife and most of my social group. I SHOULD have actually done my schoolwork at school, and not flunked out. But I was mentally ill and unaware of it at the time, and genuinely had no capacity to do so. And, it was the fact that Lis and I were both going through rough times, me flunking out, her dealing with the death of her grandfather, that had us start spending time together, and eventually dating, and eventually getting married.

I no longer feel that I have the capacity to truly figure out what is a good decision or bad decision. I've given up on trying to figure out "good" and "bad", and just try to make my decisions based on "honorable" and "ethical".

It's frankly easier to just decide to do the RIGHT thing, rather than the BEST thing.