Oh. NOW I get why dieting is hard.

So, honestly, the past few weeks that I've been on Weight Watchers haven't been bad. Sure, I was hungry on days 4 through 7, but not really since, and even then, I wasn't having food CRAVINGS.

And now my depressive phase has started.

And I'm sitting here SHAKING I want chocolate so much. Like, a LOT of chocolate. I already had a reasonable amount of chocolate. Because, y'know, this plan allows you a reasonable amount of chocolate. But now that I've switched into the depressive phase of my bipolar, I want to eat a truly unhealthy amount of chocolate, refined sugar, and fats.

So far, I've been able to trick my body by drinking diet sodas, which I still find disgusting, but are somehow managing to keep the craving under control. Diet Moxie is the least bad diet soda, because it's SUPPOSED to be bitter, even if it's not supposed to be soapy, bleach-y, and chemical-y. Still, as long as I can convince myself that it's just Moxie in a poorly-rinsed glass, I can drink it, and it manages to keep the worst of it at bay.

I'm finding the whole process intellectually fascinating, along with finding it unpleasant.