I'm sorry for your grandfather's condition. I have one grandparent left, and I'm dreading losing her. It really does hurt, and it's okay that you're focusing on that.

Good luck with your ADD meds. Mine have made a huge difference in my life. For the first time, I'm not wishing I could just sleep forever, struggling to make it through the day. I have actual energy, and I can focus it on whatever I want. It's taking some getting used to.